Sneakered feet pounding against the hot pavement
Sweat coating my back, my chest, my forehead, my thighs
Chest heaving in and out in rhythmic breaths
Merciless sun beating down on my back and shoulders
Music infusing itself into my soul
Delirious happiness settles into my heart
I guess this is what they call a runner's high.
This is what we are
Figments of a bigger world
Possibly the most meaningless parts of the universe
But we are here
You and me
Together in this room
You lay sprawled across the bed on your back
Your aqua eyes seek out my own eyes
But they're too busy drinking you in
The tanned and freckled skin on the tops of your shoulders
The five or so hairs in the middle of your chest
The way hair whorls around your belly button and down
Even the way your jeans fit just so
You exude a lazy sexiness that reminds me why I fell for you
Why I'm in this very room
A cigarette dangling from my lip
Inhaling and exhaling without a care in the world
Driving down the highway in the dark
Orange streetlights flashing past
Bursts of light illuminating your face
All is quiet and peaceful
The only sound, that of our breathing
But then a sense of apprehension arises in me
We approach a darkened stretch of road
An overpass with no illumination
I see something hanging from above
It looms closer, swinging in the breeze
As I realize what it is, bile rises
It's a man on a rope, grotesque and blue
I scream to stop
To avoid this morbid cadaver at all costs
But we keep drawing closer
I look over at you in the driver's seat
But it's no longer you
The driver no longer has a face
He's
Violent music echoes in the room
It repeats five times before it finally fades out
Before the phone display goes dark
Before all is calm again.
It takes a minute to calm my pulse
I know who just called me
I know why he just called me
The phone stays silent.
Why does he do this?
Evoke feelings I never wanted to feel again
Scatter my thoughts
Confuse me.
The difference is that this time.
This time I didn't answer.
I left the phone to ring.
And curled back into strong, waiting arms.
Muzzily blinking your eyes
Opening them to a face you only half recognize
The sun is creeping through the blinds
Illuminating the dust motes in the air
Shedding light on an unfamiliar room
The person it belongs to is still asleep
Arms wrapped loosely around you
Carefully, you slip out of bed
Find your clothes where you tossed them
Search for your shoes
Grab your purse
One last glance around the room
You sneak out the door
Just another girl he'll forget
A leaf falls from the highest branches
Glossy surface catching on the breeze
The sunny yellow contrasts with the sky
That looms, grey, above it
The leaf flutters and floats
Spinning violently as it is taken away
Slowly, gently, it comes to rest
Laying upon the chilly concrete at my feet
I bend over, grasping the leaf by the tail
I twirl it between my fingers
For several moments, I remain still
Engrossed in its vibrant golden hue
My fingers trace the rough edges
And its delicate network of veins
It reminds me of childhood autumns
The smell of winter on the horizon
Bundling up into jackets
I wake up, bleary and warm
I still wear the clothes I wore last night
I hear murmuring from above me
Two faces peer at me
Leaning over the side of the top bunk
One male, one female
They ask if I want to eat
So I say yes and say I'd love to
The three of us open the door and walk out
We walk down the hall
And into the elevator
One of us presses the button marked "L"
I feel the elevator dropping
And the effect of gravity when we arrive
We stroll out into the chilly day
Across the brick-paved courtyard
And into the din of the cafeteria
It smells of breakfast
Like syrup and waffles
We eat like we are starved
Then we hand over
Drink in a red cup
Like many other drinks before
Taste of sweetness with a bite
Put it down on the coffee table
Watch it like a hawk
Warm atmosphere
Voices emanating from all around
Fuzzy feelings
Happiness bubbling from you
Floating floating
Ping pong ball falls next to you
Hand it back
Rock out to the bass
Thumping from the corner of the room
Incense from the table
Fills the room with sweet smoke
Bustling people
Talking all around
Smiles on every face
This is a party
Deep into the night, his sleeping form stirs
He shifts his muscled arm from under my head
I lift an eyelid and watch as he moves around
The muscles of his body tense and relax
He lets out a sleepy, unintelligible groan
His head finds my bare shoulder
His strong arms draw me close...
Finally, his breathing steadies again
And he settles back into sleep
With me dreaming by his side
Sneakered feet pounding against the hot pavement
Sweat coating my back, my chest, my forehead, my thighs
Chest heaving in and out in rhythmic breaths
Merciless sun beating down on my back and shoulders
Music infusing itself into my soul
Delirious happiness settles into my heart
I guess this is what they call a runner's high.
This is what we are
Figments of a bigger world
Possibly the most meaningless parts of the universe
But we are here
You and me
Together in this room
You lay sprawled across the bed on your back
Your aqua eyes seek out my own eyes
But they're too busy drinking you in
The tanned and freckled skin on the tops of your shoulders
The five or so hairs in the middle of your chest
The way hair whorls around your belly button and down
Even the way your jeans fit just so
You exude a lazy sexiness that reminds me why I fell for you
Why I'm in this very room
A cigarette dangling from my lip
Inhaling and exhaling without a care in the world
Driving down the highway in the dark
Orange streetlights flashing past
Bursts of light illuminating your face
All is quiet and peaceful
The only sound, that of our breathing
But then a sense of apprehension arises in me
We approach a darkened stretch of road
An overpass with no illumination
I see something hanging from above
It looms closer, swinging in the breeze
As I realize what it is, bile rises
It's a man on a rope, grotesque and blue
I scream to stop
To avoid this morbid cadaver at all costs
But we keep drawing closer
I look over at you in the driver's seat
But it's no longer you
The driver no longer has a face
He's
Violent music echoes in the room
It repeats five times before it finally fades out
Before the phone display goes dark
Before all is calm again.
It takes a minute to calm my pulse
I know who just called me
I know why he just called me
The phone stays silent.
Why does he do this?
Evoke feelings I never wanted to feel again
Scatter my thoughts
Confuse me.
The difference is that this time.
This time I didn't answer.
I left the phone to ring.
And curled back into strong, waiting arms.
Muzzily blinking your eyes
Opening them to a face you only half recognize
The sun is creeping through the blinds
Illuminating the dust motes in the air
Shedding light on an unfamiliar room
The person it belongs to is still asleep
Arms wrapped loosely around you
Carefully, you slip out of bed
Find your clothes where you tossed them
Search for your shoes
Grab your purse
One last glance around the room
You sneak out the door
Just another girl he'll forget
A leaf falls from the highest branches
Glossy surface catching on the breeze
The sunny yellow contrasts with the sky
That looms, grey, above it
The leaf flutters and floats
Spinning violently as it is taken away
Slowly, gently, it comes to rest
Laying upon the chilly concrete at my feet
I bend over, grasping the leaf by the tail
I twirl it between my fingers
For several moments, I remain still
Engrossed in its vibrant golden hue
My fingers trace the rough edges
And its delicate network of veins
It reminds me of childhood autumns
The smell of winter on the horizon
Bundling up into jackets
I wake up, bleary and warm
I still wear the clothes I wore last night
I hear murmuring from above me
Two faces peer at me
Leaning over the side of the top bunk
One male, one female
They ask if I want to eat
So I say yes and say I'd love to
The three of us open the door and walk out
We walk down the hall
And into the elevator
One of us presses the button marked "L"
I feel the elevator dropping
And the effect of gravity when we arrive
We stroll out into the chilly day
Across the brick-paved courtyard
And into the din of the cafeteria
It smells of breakfast
Like syrup and waffles
We eat like we are starved
Then we hand over
Drink in a red cup
Like many other drinks before
Taste of sweetness with a bite
Put it down on the coffee table
Watch it like a hawk
Warm atmosphere
Voices emanating from all around
Fuzzy feelings
Happiness bubbling from you
Floating floating
Ping pong ball falls next to you
Hand it back
Rock out to the bass
Thumping from the corner of the room
Incense from the table
Fills the room with sweet smoke
Bustling people
Talking all around
Smiles on every face
This is a party
Deep into the night, his sleeping form stirs
He shifts his muscled arm from under my head
I lift an eyelid and watch as he moves around
The muscles of his body tense and relax
He lets out a sleepy, unintelligible groan
His head finds my bare shoulder
His strong arms draw me close...
Finally, his breathing steadies again
And he settles back into sleep
With me dreaming by his side
I carefully pick fragments of a life
from a conversation held between lovers
who've not the circumstance to be such.
I check my tongue, teeth and lips
-
(where I find them wanting yours
but that's another story)
-
for leaks, that I might say something wrong
speak out of turn, or else just make a fool.
I accept your honesty, to lay down with you
though I don't know, now, what to do.
I tell you everything that I can't remember
and the things that I don't want to know.
I open to you, like a flower does to the sunshine
and shake off the dew of a night time, now passed.
I pull myself beyond my means for you.
Even though there's no
To write love on her arms,
a mark of ownership.
You "belong" to me.
A scripture enwraps her body
after a given time,
they begin to form
the scribe and his parchment.
The vellum
smiles as
she reads
herself,
the first
paragraph
scrolling
down her
left
forearm.
Her palm, a few lines of code,
in a language she knows.
A
short
five
words
are
Written on each finger.
A swirl of script returns to her shoulder
across her back an epic,
down to the place where he always rests his hand.
The small warm soft place,
on her hip that's responsive
is where the haiku goes.
Words tickle up her side and across her lower rib
Can you ever love me again?
...And then there was no sound,
but the thunderous breaking of a heart.
Then silver, pure silver silence,
as icy tears spill from the eyes of a statue.
See how the perceived immortal weeps
for the love of a girl who's since become a woman.
The stone dais trembles
the statue crumbles to it's knees.
Look how the mighty have toppled,
for the love of a light-hearted girl.
A single, barely noticeable hairline crack
adorns the chest of the stone figure
And on the pedestal, the stone tablet beneath,
these words are inlaid.
Go now, my shining light!
Take my stone strength
and my soft heart.
Take it on
I remember the days when you were happy,
when you used to smile
and your eyes were full of bright lights.
Now I barely see you, I love you from afar
from behind a screen, from far away.
Six degrees of seperation,
of latitude and longitude,
you're still so far away.
You leapt into my arms, once,
kissed my face
and refused to let me put you down.
You told me that you loved me,
you still tell me that you love me,
just it rings tiredly now,
like you've gone from carefree
and a vivacious love of life
to sullen and despairing.
Unsettled, I suppose it is,
you haven't rooted anywhere for long enough.
You need stability
I though
So I did it again, was looking for you.
I hate that I have no idea where you are,
if you're happy, well, even alive.
It hurts to write this and think about you again,
I don't like that I can't let go.
My eyes are beginning to sting
and my throat's starting to close.
Damn you, you always do this to me.
All I need is a simple sign,
or a breath, a whisper, a few words,
a smile, a touch, a hug... A kiss?
I remember all the time we spent, together,
I know we probably never were going to last,
but you know me, forever the hopeful.
Even when everything seemed to pile against us,
you smiled when I said "There's always hope."
And yeah,
Within the silence, sincere. by CaptainOzz, literature
Literature
Within the silence, sincere.
With the halo of a streetlamp,
you clasp the lapels of your old coat
tighter around your neck.
There's an ill wind blowing,
only because I see you
and you don't see me.
I turn away, desolate.
There's nothing I can do for you
is there?
I retreat into the holy dark,
encompassed by it's forgiveness
I forgive you, I forgive you, I forgive you.
It whispers to me, sanctimoniously,
I forget myself for a moment,
believing in angels and demons,
gods and devils,
holy crosses and rain of blood once again.
I snap out of it, hello darkness.
I smile and in silence sincere,
I hear your voice once again.
I rise from a broken throne,
dr
A strand or two of purple lights,
a candle, here or there,
a dimmed lamp
Light the small bedroom.
A breeze floats in
through the open window,
smelling of the cool spring night,
brushing past the curtains.
A record player sits on the dresser.
From it, croons a bluesy tune,
wrought with emotion,
swelling the room with sound.
The girl inside dances,
swaying to the beat,
hips in time with music,
who remains her one true love.
Current Residence: In the general vicinity Favourite genre of music: Any really. I'm kind of delving at this point. MP3 player of choice: 4th Generation iPod nano (purple) Personal Quote: "Say it again and you will have no balls faster than you can say the word eunuch" -me
Favourite Writers
Emily Dickinson (you can sing her poetry to the tune of Gilligan's Island)
Other Interests
Singing, poem writing, photography, and random artistry
It's Sunday Evening.
Almost eleven o'clock
The sun has set and this part of the world has fallen gently asleep...or at least some of us have.
I am back at home for the summer.
Frankly, it blows.
I have a new boyfriend.
He is awesome so far. This fact makes me happy. He hails from Cali and he's a bit of a stoner (or a LOT XD) but he is, in no way, a "surfer bro". Instead, he's a coffee nerd who is possibly the nicest person you'll ever know. So far, everything's hunky dory (except the fact that he's not tall enough for me to wear my heels without making him an inch shorter...but that's just my shallow side talking). It's been about 3 mo
I have a story:
It begins three years ago in early Spring, when a boy asks a girl if she'll be his girlfriend. Now, she cannot help but say yes after having been pining after this boy for some time. They go on to have a lovely relationship. This continues for almost two years, but there were some squalls ahead for them. Before their two year anniversary, the unthinkable happens, the boy breaks up with the girl, leaving her on that cold, misty day in March to go on without him. You see, the boy had begun to explore the world of alcohol and parties and the girl, being very straight-laced at that point, had found that to be distasteful, so the
So, it's been a while since I posted an actual journal...I thought that I might do so today.
I'm sitting here, bored, in my bed at Towson and decided to browse the interwebs for something to do. I went through my entire list of entertaining bookmarks and finally wound up on DeviantART. Now, I haven't exactly been a regular member of the dA community since the "John Fiasco" occured over year ago, so I feel that people have probably stopped really paying attention, but I wanted to post something anyway >.>
For today, I woke up at 10:45 to the sound of Dan and Liz talking quietly in the bunk above me. They asked if I should care to have "brun